Perhaps a little more context is in order. The reporter is a guy who is working on a long lead piece, and I had already spent a bunch of time with him. He's a very nice, interesting and curious guy, and I certainly didn't think he intended to do me any horrific harm when I got his request. I think he was understandably perplexed when I told him that I didn't want to send the information via email, but preferred to share it via the phone. As he said, it wasn't as though he was asking for my social security number.
Upon reflection, I was, in fact, being a little bit weird. The fact of the matter is that although I'm at my goal weight, I'm still self-conscious about writing my weight down. This got me to wondering why I am so uncomfortable with this? Prevailing wisdom suggests that men are very comfortable talking about how many pounds they weigh. Or are they?...
So for those curious about how much I weigh, here it goes (deep breath...):
- I'm 6'3"
- When I got weighed last week, I was 204 lbs, one pound over my goal weight of 203 lbs (this is with clothing -- in fact, I was wearing chain mail armor)
- This puts me at a BMI of 25.5
[BTW, I made reference to a six pound gain in a blog post about a month ago. I am happy to report that five of those pounds have been vanquished. Yeah me! It's also worth noting that at my heaviest, I was 244 pounds. Double-yeah me!]
Though I'm down 5 lbs, I would guess that I still weigh more than the witch and the duck. That doesn't make me a warlock, so put your pitchforks away. |
One reason I'm self-conscious about my weight is that I am 0.5 above the clinical definition of the lower end of the overweight BMI range of 25 to 29.9 (obese is 30+ -- I was in that range at one point). For me to be at a BMI of 24.9, I need to get down to about 199. So how is it that my officially sanctioned Weight Watchers goal weight ended up four pounds above this?
When it came time to setting my goal weight, I first had a conversation with my leader, Liz, and I expressed that 199 felt way too skinny for me to sustainably maintain. In fact, I've been at 199, and that's the weight where people start telling me that I look a little gaunt -- I finally learned to stop taking that as a compliment. Liz suggested that I talk to a qualified healthcare professional to determine a truly healthy weight for me. So I made an appointment with the Chief Scientific Officer of Weight Watchers (What can I say? It's a perk of the job.) She checked a couple of extra facts about me when helping me find my goal weight, including:
- My waist size, which is 34", well under the target of 38"
- My body-fat percentage as measured by a commercial grade impedance device. I came in at 16% body fat. I tested it again last week and I was at 17%. According to the American Council on Exercise, 14% to 17% qualifies as "fitness" and 18% to 25% qualifies as "acceptable". I usually bounce around from 15% to 17%.
Based on all of this, she felt comfortable that my goal of 203 was definitely at a healthy weight, so I was able to get a waiver on the BMI 25 so that I could qualify for Lifetime Membership.
Not to sound like too much of a cliche-ridden man, but I do lift weights pretty frequently (4X per week), so I have built up some muscle mass (which is totally apparent when I squint into the mirror). Further, I'm convinced that I come from farming stock -- I'm pretty large framed. OK, maybe I am a cliche-ridden man.
In truth, there is no perfect measure of healthy weight, and this subject is not without controversy. Weight Watchers regularly scours the research, and despite any imperfections, BMI is still the most easily used and maintained measure that is highly predictive of health risk factors. However, because BMI is not perfect, Weight Watchers allows its members to get written permission from their doctors to qualify for Lifetime Membership as long as their BMI is below 27. I'm one of them.
There. I have now broadcasted my weight, and it's out there in the world. Even writing this in my blog entry gives me a vague feeling of uneasiness. Why?
- I have never had any problem talking about my weight loss (30 pounds), but I have never been as comfortable talking about my absolute weight. Most people guess that I weigh less than I actually do (I think that's a good thing), a fact that makes me feel all the more self-conscious about the actual number. I do understand that I am overly obsessing about a number, and too often ignoring observations such as my skinnier, post-weight loss clothing still fitting and that I am looking vaguely the way I should look. More importantly, I am still living very much of a healthy lifestyle, so that is clearly the most important consideration. Yet, I still worry about that little number. What can I say? I have an in-grained need to keep score on myself.
- I feel accountable to the people I work with, particularly given my role in the organization, to be the walking, breathing example of Weight Watchers. I am happy to be at my weight for myself, but I feel obligated to make sure I stay there for others. I'm not sure this is an entirely bad thing. Feeling a sense of accountability for our health for others can be a useful and effective motivator (at least for me). It is certainly a good will gesture for my family, who would like to see me around for a long time. I also believe that the success of each of us can help motivate others to do the same. It has often been written that obesity is contagious: if all of your friends are over-weight, you are statistically more likely to be overweight yourself. I'd like to think that the opposite is also true.
This is one of those blog posts that I write knowing that it can be kind of a touchy subject for a lot of people. It certain has been for me writing it. Then again, maybe I'm over-thinking it all. I do that.
Cheers,
David